Day 51
Everton, MO to
Marshfield. MO
Distance: 55 miles
Total climbing: 4,183
ft
MO angels: everywhere
As I rode into the
farm where I stayed last night, the fact that I had spent a mile on a rocky
road of loose stones and gravel meant that I knew I would be doing the same
first thing this morning to get back out to the highway. I just hadn’t quite
expected the road to be quite as rocky as it was.
I woke early with the
light creeping in through the windows of the bedroom. I’d slept on the top of
the bed in my PJs, covered in my Pashmina (princess!), since it was hot anyway,
and not getting under the covers meant that it cost $25 rather than $60. But I
slept fitfully, dreaming, waking hearing noises, and just generally unsettled.
I was also scratching myself all over, not due to the farm, but as a result of
the copious number of mosquito bites I have picked up over the last few days.
As I made myself a
coffee from the Maxwell House Instant I’d brought with me, adding a little
icing sugar from the cornucopia cupboard for good luck, and pushed the
hamburger buns into the toaster to make morning toast, I heard the TV in the background talking about
a case I’d been aware of before. The horrific incident where NFL player Ray
Rice is seen pulling his unconscious fiancée from an elevator.
Only as I walked into
the room today, there was a CCTV camera video of him punching her straight in
the face, knocking her out with one blow.
Instantly tears welled
up in my eyes, and I felt sick as they replayed the video over a few times. I
listened to what they were saying and was in total agreement with the comments
made by Tamron Hall, the NBC presenter who is leading a campaign against
domestic violence (more on this below).
But for some reason,
the images affected me. As I tried to go about getting myself ready for the
day, I couldn’t seem to stop the tears pouring from my eyes.
I thought it would
stop when I got on the bike, but it didn’t. I pedalled around 7 miles, crying
intermittently, gasping for breath, until I reached the small town of Ash
Grove.
Realising that I
needed to do something to calm myself down, I stopped at small the gas station there and kept
my face flat as I bought a coffee and a Twix and sat down outside to try to
comfort myself, give myself time to recover. I phoned a friend back in the UK, who picked up
and just listened to me sobbing down the phone, telling me it was OK.
After going back into
the gas station and using the restroom to re-apply the sun cream to my face
where it had washed off, I was trying to keep my head down and make my exit,
when a nice older man in denim overalls, sitting in a rocking chair in one
corner of the gas station stopped me. He looked just like the Grandpa from The
Waltons, and had obviously snuck in when I was outside and looking the other
way.
A photo of Grandpa Walton (in lieu of Tommy) |
“You OK?” he asked.
“What can we do? Do you need a drink, food, money?”
“Oh, that’s sweet.” I
replied. “Really, I’m fine.”
“You sure?” he
pressed.
I knew then he had
witnessed my meltdown.
He stood up as my face
broke again, and gave me a hug, willing me again to sit down, which I then did.
I held it together,
and we chatted about a few things, and then he reached for a game that he said
was an ancient maths teaching aid from the area. We played for a few minutes –
he won.
One and Six is...oh fiddlesticks... |
And then he told me
that his wife had just been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. When a lady came
into the store, she asked about that, and he described how they had found
tumours in her liver, around her intestines, in her lymph nodes and more – she
had gone back in today to have the rest of her body scanned.
“We’ve been together
45 years,” he told me. “It’s going to be hard.”
We chatted a little
longer and more people came in and out, and then he said he should go. This
time I stood up and gave him a hug. He said his name was Tommy. I wanted to
take a photo of him, but he wasn’t keen. And so I thanked him for his amazing
understanding and kindness and told him how sorry I was to hear about his
wife’s illness.
“Just remember us,” he
said as he went.
And I know that I will
remember Tommy, and his wife, for a long time to come.
As I carried on with
my day, I felt like a weight had lifted. In the morning I had been too upset
even to speak to the cows by the roadside. Every set of cows gets a “Bonjour
les Vaches” whether it likes it or not, but not this morning. But after
speaking with Tommy, I knew that I had to just get on with it, and so the next
unfortunate set of cows got not only a general address, but I decided to take a
photo too.
MO Cows |
It wasn’t long until I
reached the town of Walnut Grove, where I stopped again at a gas station, and
was grateful that they allowed me to eat my leftover pasta at
their tables (I made enough to feed the 5000 last night), and gave me a
half-price slice of pizza to add a bit of variety.
I spoke to another
couple of older guys in overalls. Indeed, there were more overalls (dungarees) on display today than on a replay of Play Away from the 1970s. These guys were curious not only about the trip, but
keen to banter about a few things relating to the UK. After we’d spoken for a
while, one of the guys (Jim I think) remarked at how hot and hilly it was
outside.
“I can put you and the
bike in my pick-up and give you a ride to Fair Grove, if you like,” he said.
But the other guy (Mr
Palmer) said, “She’s riding cross country on a bike Jim, because she wants to
do it on a bike.”
Their gentle little
tiff made me chuckle, and I thought about how they were both a little bit
right, given how I felt today. But I knew I would keep plodding on until I got
there.
From Walnut Grove to
Fair Grove, the temperature continued to rise, as did the size and gradient of
the hills.
Wall or Road? |
But I kept pressing on,
until eventually I arrived in Marshfield and my comfortable hotel.
I knew I would have a
couple of packages waiting for me, as I had asked Valerie to send me a few
essentials, including contact lenses, and had ordered myself a couple of
replacement cycling tops since the current ones are starting to get caked with
sun-cream and Gatorade stains.
I couldn’t quite
believe my eyes at the package that I received…
Speechless... |
Amazing – and in a
weird kind of symmetry it brought happy tears to my eyes to finish the day. Thank you Valerie, so much.
Heading over to the
Mexican next to the hotel for dinner, I unwittingly ordered a “large”
Margarita, which turned out to be a 50oz affair called The Monster.
Make Mine a Stein and The Monster? |
The food was excellent
and I made a good effort, eating almost all of it. Having joked with the other
diners around me about the drink, I was stunned when Sally and Beth, who were
on a table diagonal from me chatted to me on their way out and Sally insisted
on picking up my check “just because”.
And so I am back in my
hotel room marvelling over the kindness of the people I already know, and of
the people I am meeting on this trip.
But it has also
convinced me that I need to be more active in my quest to try, by making this
trip, to raise money and awareness for people affected by domestic abuse.
And so tonight, and into the last few weeks of the trip, I will be posting occasional supplemental posts
on this blog to try to achieve this aim. It is still not a comfortable thing
for me to do. It is deeply personal, and I am sorry to friends and family who
might be upset by what they read (please don’t read if you are worried about
that), but I feel it is something I need to do to help change attitudes and to
support those who are still in abusive situations.
In her commentary on NBC today, Tamron Hall raised a vital issue. Why is it, she asked, that seeing this
video is not enough? Why do people still ask what it was that led up to this?
Looking for a reason, an explanation, trying to see what it was that the victim
did to provoke what happened, rather than simply accepting that, whatever she
did, it did not justify what happened next.
I got sick of talking
to people I knew in London around the time of the Nigella Lawson photos of her
husband holding her by the throat, and having a similar discussion. Sitting
there where seemingly intelligent and caring people commented on how media
savvy and clever Nigella was, and how there was no doubt a story behind it that
we did not know.
What more did they
need to know? Nothing (other than self-defence) would ever justify the pictures
we saw then, or see now in the Ray Rice case. Whatever happened before is
irrelevant.
The question that
needs to be asked is of the aggressor, to understand what was going on his
head, and to work out what needs to be done so that he never does the same
thing again, to that woman, or another one.
Abuse is never OK. But
for so long as we as a society continue to ask the wrong question, this stigma
will remain and, as you will see from my supplemental posts, victims will
continue to ask these questions of themselves.
I am on day 51 of my
trip. I have cycled almost 3,000 miles solo. Some days it is hard. And yet
every day is amazing. Because I am free. And for that I will be eternally
grateful.
Thank you for your
support.
Me x
Wow! Its been quite a day for you! You are on a journey in so so many ways....
ReplyDeletePeople can be amazing can't they.....kindness does bring tears! Thankfully such people outnumber those who can bring such harm.
Ride on Kat...and be proud....of everything.
Love from Norfolk....where we definitely have roads not walls!!
Sue x
Thanks Sue, that's very true. And thanks for your support :-) x
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